Lately, it seems as though no one wants me around. I've heard from my friend that a person who used to be my friend thinks I'm annoying even though since I got moved to a different section in choir I never talk to her. Also, I was at a party and no one really included me. They all just kind of mingled amongst themselves. No need to acknowledge Brooke guys. That's fine. Not only in person do people make me feel unwanted, but I was asking my friend online for help, and she and I used two of the the same quotes on our paper unknowingly. She was rudely stating that we may be accused of cheating. Now, my question is, how is that when we talked about it after we wrote our papers? But anyhoo, then I told her that nothing else showed me how the character was loyal to her family and her gods. So, then she said whatever and stopped talking to me. I mean, I'm sorry, but there are probably many other people in our class who used the same quotes, too. It just makes me soo angry how I bust my butt to make other people happy before myself, and I put aside all my feelings to keep peace, and they treat me like a piece of crap. Do I not deserve to be treated any better? Or am I destined to be treated like this for the rest of my life?
Even though I feel unwanted, life seems like it's getting better. I started my devotions again. The past week has been crazy busy, and all I ever had time to do is go to school, trebs, and work and finish my homework. Now, everything is settling into a semi-less stressful routine, for lack of a better word. Also, today seemed a lot lighter than usual. Last night, I literally cried to God asking Him to help find me, and now I'm on the right path towards Him again. I handed the feelings I've been carrying around for some time over to Him. It feels amazing not being weighed down. Y'all should try it. But even though I gave Him my feelings, I still feel for one of my friends. And, always will, especially in her rough times.
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